I don't even know how to start. So maybe ...hello. But actually, I guess that nobody reads it. Or almost nobody. So today I decided to write like in a diary because I don't know who I can talk to. I also don't know if somebody can understand me. But I'm sure of one thing - I AM NOT EMO, so don't worry. :)
It's 1:30am and I should be sleeping because I start work in 7 hours. But I can't...my life is like a big fail. My boyfriend, or ex-boyfriend now, broke up with me a month ago, I still miss him even if he's a dick. My mum is always angry at me and she says I'm nobody. I argued with my dad over a month ago and he stopped giving me money. I've become a bad student with bad grades who also skives school. My friends are fucking ignorant. Of course not everybody but most of them. I have great friends but they live in other countries...for example Belgium, it's like 1300km away from Poland. Oh,and my mates are planning holidays and I will probably stay home. COOL. I'm doing so well.
I wish I could leave this country, these people. I want to start a new life. That's what I feel now. Or maybe I just need to meet an amazing person who will change my life? Dunno.:) You can think everything's okay because I always smile or laugh but I don't want to think about my problems like non stop. I want to forget even for a while.
So yeah...that's all I wanted to say. Alex.
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